Kneading your needs

Good evening Travellers,

Did you remember today is Monday? This may be the only time in human existence where Mondays have been merely a shoulder shrug in the parade of time without measure. Mondays look a lot different without work and school and well, normal life, don’t they?

I’m gonna go a little free form and throw out some thoughts that have been on my mind today about Need…

I think this is a really good time for us to evaluate what we really need in our lives, versus want and desire and expectations around material possessions and how we associate our value as a human with things we believe we need to have or be… but more than that, it’s just what do you really need? What do we need?

I often think that a good measure of what you need can be determined by what you are thankful for…

I’ve been working on comprising a quick list in the mornings while lying in bed of what is good in my life and what am I thankful for, it’s something I started doing in the last year on and off. Because it gives the morning a certain shade of color that seems like ease and happiness. It makes rising from slumber feel more purposeful perhaps.

I’m thankful for my family, friends, my furry pack , my job, my mind, my health, my physical capabilities. Thankful to know how to eat well, that I have money to eat well,  that I enjoy reading and traveling and want to take the world inside and examine it with the utmost curiosity. I’m thankful for a warm bed, regardless that my mattress is sagging abit in the center, which I always seem to fall into. I’m thankful for my home, regardless of the list of things that need to be fixed or replaced or repaired or my fear about how am I going to take care of everything. I’m thankful for the sunrise and sunset and the birds singing each day. And the moon and the stars. And music. And for an unknown future that holds opportunity.

I’ve come to be mostly thankful for being me, because I think that’s important. I’m not 100% of the way there, but I’m getting there. I think we all need to know ourselves, heal ourselves, embrace ourselves, champion ourselves. That may be one of the greatest needs that so many will never have fulfilled. That particular need  leaves a hole that we fill with other stuff. And then we’ll call those things what we need.

I’ve become thankful for my divorce, I know that sounds weird, but it’s true. It forced me into a journey that I had refused to take into myself. I can remember saying over and over when it began, that I could see the path, but didn’t want to go. And then I did. One foot in front of the other. Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been happiness the whole way, but I find I’m oddly content for a person who has a lot to figure out about her life still. I can’t help but feel the divorce was something we both needed.

As far as stuff goes, what do we Need? Do we need closets full of clothes, or fancy cars? Do we need massive houses with kitchens that are larger than most apartments in New York? How much money do we need? 

And here’s the big one, WHY do we come to believe we need the things we have?

I think one of the most interesting things this viral apocalypse has done is made scavengers and hoarders in a nation of people who have had everything. Let’s be clear, I say that as a member of the middle class, there are people here who live in poverty and have been scavenging their whole lives. But the rest of us I think are learning what it’s like to wonder if you will have what you need…and no, I’m not just talking about toilet paper.

I’m talking about the most basic need, survival. And not just for yourself, but us. We need to survive, don’t we? I keep thinking about that girl, Greta Thunberg and how most people perhaps thought she was just a child ranting about global warming. But she was posing a valid question, what is the world we leave to future generations, and how will our drive to fulfill our NEEDS undermine their future?

I’m not saying global warming brought this virus, but Need definitely may have a starring role…

Just some thoughts about how this situation could be providing a sort of opportunity that we didn’t ask for, but perhaps we need it.






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